Silence..
I need the noise to drown out the silence As I'm sinking down
Because when it's quiet My hand is still reaching out
The voice inside becomes violent For a chance or a person to come save me.
It softly whispers my name to the of point insanity, But like passing ships
If peace is such a blessing Your waves graze me
Why does it feel like torture? With your presence,
I'm losing myself If the light comes from the heavens
Inside I'm screaming for help I won't wait to step in it.
I've tried everything to block it out I'll say goodbye, peace, sayonara to ya
There's no use, the hold is unbearable. With all the love in my heart
As I sink to the bottom I hope this gets through.
I'll look up to the sky It's not easy fighting these thoughts
One last time. But for you, I'll go one more day.
I need the noise to drown out the silence As I'm sinking down
Because when it's quiet My hand is still reaching out
The voice inside becomes violent For a chance or a person to come save me.
It softly whispers my name to the of point insanity, But like passing ships
If peace is such a blessing Your waves graze me
Why does it feel like torture? With your presence,
I'm losing myself If the light comes from the heavens
Inside I'm screaming for help I won't wait to step in it.
I've tried everything to block it out I'll say goodbye, peace, sayonara to ya
There's no use, the hold is unbearable. With all the love in my heart
As I sink to the bottom I hope this gets through.
I'll look up to the sky It's not easy fighting these thoughts
One last time. But for you, I'll go one more day.
I started writing at an early age to express my inner thoughts. Around kindergarten I learned the concept of poetry after being introduce to Langston Hughes's poem "Harlem" and Tupac Shakur's "The Rose That Grew from Concrete". These poems sparked my interest as well as created a stepping stone for my writing.
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What's the Point
I won't beg For you to love me. For you to try or give my your all. I won't waste my tears On nothing Because my dad could do it all. If I was important If you cared My voice wouldn't be so hoarse. But I'll move my way Live how I want and be my own judge. I Can't make you do anything So what's the point. Birdsongs
Chirping Singing Their whistling tune Keeps me awake at night And sing lullabies til dawn. Sorrow Happiness Brings the new day Echoing through my mind Until I finally close my eyes. River
Send me down the river Lay me next to my sweet Don't let me rot in the garden Filled with willow trees Wrap me up in my blanket Kiss and sing to me Watch me sink down under Next to my sweet Beauty in Isolation
Trapped
Dead is the wind And I'm a slave to it Untitled
Truth
Truth You finally told me Anticipating a different result Even though I knew the Truth Explain how sorry you are Neglecting my feelings You withheld the Truth You gave it to me Swallowing the hard pill Wishing you never said the Truth Now I have to figure out How to forget you Because you couldn't tell the Truth Life
Shit I'm LATE!! I Saw Your Sun
I saw your sun It called out my name. It said "where have you been." While We're In Bloom
What You Didn't Do
Late at night When I'm wide awake When life gets heavy I think of you. And all I feel is the weight. I try to hold it in Be brave Keep the contained face but it still hurts... It's not what you said It's not what you did It's what you didn't say. I felt alone, abandoned, unloved But you didn't have a clue. It's the things you didn't do That made me leave What you didn't do Was tell me to stay. Willy Boy
I’ll Never Be
You see I’ll never be The face that stands out in the crowd The outgoing girl That everyone wants to be around. I’ll never be The first person people think of The go to girl Hit my line up cuz you're my dawg friend. I’ll never be The person who turns up the room Always down to party Let’s hang, chill, do something friend. Im more of the.. Oh hey you, Haven’t seen you in years How’s it going friend. I'm the pass by and ignore me Left by myself Hope she don’t see me Kind of friend. I’m the "Ah bring this person!" "Oh yea you can come too", We love you but you’re different Kind of friend. I’m more of we don’t do the same things Let me hold some money, Can you do this for me? You’re great at it friend. The help you fix your shit Neglect my feelings I’m scream for some one to see me! Kind of friend. So yes, it’s true I’ll never be the let hang out friend.. Because I’ll never be The person who’ll wait for you, To finally understand who I am. I Will
I’m starting to think differently About myself, My goals My life. These are the days when I don’t have a wondering eye. An eye that tells me to quit Give up Or even die. Today is the day when I can conquer. Conquer my demons My spirituality My life. I will rise to the occasion I will not fall. I will overcome my obstacles I will live. I will break every chain I will succeed I will arrive. 
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Peace
I’m finally finding peace in silence Although it’s isolating I’m protecting me. I don’t have anxiety but honestly Depression takes over me Like a warm hug from behind Soothing me, making me cry. I can’t help but ask God “why?” Why must I feel the weight of the world in my heart? Why must I care for others When it breaks me apart Eating me away inside. So yes silence is my peace It keeps me away from anger But it whispers to me. Let go Join me. It’s calm on the other side Come, please, hurry. Although I made promises To never listen to the whispers They can be convincing. Green
I'm turning green, cause jealousy Is coming for me It's in between. Is it her or is it me? Tell me honestly. Cause I don't believe. Sleepless Nights
Uncharted
Can you look me in the eyes Can you tell me face to face Where did we go wrong? Did we lose ourselves to fate? I'm standing right here But my bones start to shake Because we are in uncharted waters. A Little Piece Of Heaven
A little piece of heaven Can you spare enough for me to find my way home? I can not reach it on my own. Can you spare a little piece just for me? Old Friend
Hello darkness My one true friend Sing me your sweet melodies That comfort me so. Hello figure That wants me home Calling from The place I shouldn’t go. Welcome companion Who’s greets me nicely Shows me his path That only appears nightly. Hello darkness My one true friend I think of you daily It gets harder to pretend. Runaway
Words
Words can be a blessing or a CURSE. Knowing what to say or how not to. Words distinguish life and death, Or change a person's mood. Words create beautiful fantasies but simple realities, They can define who you are or aren't. Words can rip through skin and expose Innocence, Or comfort loneliness and sorrow. Words can make you fall in love.... or OUT.... Sometimes They Are Never Enough. Wolf
Wolf in sheep's clothes Tell me lies slow Serenade me Till I fall in LOVE Wonderstruck
Just For A Second
I slowly close my eyes Just for a second Because it's the only time I realize The truth of my infatuation. But clearly My mind is stuck on one situation Static radio stations Playing the same intoxication Tunes of love and desperation. But I haven't learned my lesson. You see When I'm with you, I can't think clearly I think about the future You and me Family Little nappy kids, growing up to be Like us But you can't see. To Dream
Wishes
I wish I could say something meaningful, A tear jerking story that'll leave you on your seat. Craving for more, Hungry for more, But I can't It's not in me. I wish I could say that opening up to someone Is like standing in front of a crowd naked. Petrified, embarrassed and humiliated But I can't. What I can tell you is You made me feel special. The kind of special where you get pointed out by your favorite artist Saying this is for you.. You gave me butterflies That make me sick now to think about. You said words that I've never heard before Now I wish you'd take back. You made me feel Like...... I was the only person in the world. I wish I could take it all back. I wish I never met you.. Demise
Something is calling me Either the light or Darkness But I'm no longer afraid. Finally
Insecurities
What about my insecurities That weigh me down. What about my doubt That chains me. What if I don't know That I am beautiful. Then what? |
